WTF 25TH POST

As said in the title...lately i've been having a lot of wad the f***s in my life....dun wanna think about it too much....im goin very stressed with not only my academics but with my social life...i hardly have time for myself...i jus want to sit by myself and watch my life passing through me....no worries,regrets or meaning....i usually want to find the meaning to life....that's a question im asking myself almost every minute of the day....but sometimes i just want to stay blank for a second or so....find time to relax but i cant....my brain always gets distracted with everything...anything in the matter of speaking....i cant stop thinking...sigh....i jus cant handle things right now...tomorrow's sunday and i hope to seat still for at least half an hour.....i have not written poetry for a long time cos of my busy schedule....this is SYF's year....i got a part in the play....a suicidale maniac...which i enjoy playing but there are some awkward scenes....sigh...look at that...im writing exactly what im feeling...i just sigh....yet again...sigh....i have been doing that a lot lately...i just did it again....its only february and im only 14 and yet i hv such a complicated life....the truth is i dun wanna be anyone but myself and i dun like people being pretentious and try to fit in.....if u r a geek,so be it...if u r smart,so be it....seriously i dun have a problem with freeks and weirdos....i am one myself....sometimes i just feel like i wanna be monotonous....quiet...so that i cn contemplate on things that matter....but i jus cant help being happy and constantly laughing with my friends....i dun noe wad to do or write right now so im saying goodbye....

this is a post where i let out everything(nearly everything)...i dun expect people to read it so if u do....dun ask me how am i or if im ok cos i hate answering that question with whatever lie may i face....


Saturday,11.44pm

14th February


P.S: I had a wonderful time with my girlfriends today...appreaciate ur time